Thursday, February 25, 2016

Anniversaries. My Dad.

Today is 2 years to the day since my Dad died.

There is hardly a day when something about him, doesn’t just pop into my head.  They are usually funny thoughts because he was a hilarious guy.  Being around him made me smile and everyone else that was lucky enough to be in his environment.

Even down to the last moments of his life.  He took it with aplomb, as he did everything. 

He had moved here when I was a baby, so about fifty years ago.  He had been the Chief Inspector of the police.  He had been a father; a friend. There wasn't a person I knew that didn't like him; and if there was, I wouldn't care to meet them.

In the ride to the facility where he died, the ambos stopped so Dad could cast his eye over Eastern Beach.

That was such a lovely thing to do and I will always be indebted to them.  They pulled over and opened up the two back doors.  Dad was tired, but he made it up on his elbows to look over the skyline of Eastern Beach.

He took a final look.  Drinking in the surrounds; let it wash over him.  Then he turned and said “let’s get this bloody show on the road!”

That was Dad.  Although my eyes sting with tears; that is the thought I will hold of him.

Love and Miss You Dad. xxxx

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Met someone...

I guess you are wondering who I met...

It is actually someone I went to school with.
He's 6'2".
54 years old.
Plays guitar and sings.
That is enough I think. :)

It is too early to rave on about it.
He lives on the edge of our state, but his kids are here.
It is a bit of 'wait and see'.

But is enough that I really like him.
I haven't "liked" anyone for ages...

Monday, February 22, 2016

Big Week...

I've had a big week.
It all started when I started looking for friends.

I decided that I should look to my past...  I added a couple of people on Facebook that I went to school with.  As these things do; it grew.  I think I now have a hundred and sixteen of them.  Friends have wormed out of the woodwork so to speak - and I'm loving it.

I can't imagine the Carol that was so internally focussed, ever adding these people.  Hell, I didn't even use my own name! Choosing instead to go with Rosalita Sanchez from the University of Mexico!  I always figured that the thirty or so people that were in my life, were enough.

Now, the new me; doesn't think you can ever have enough people in your life.

When I was in rehab; almost comatose, I realised that.  I've a sister here and a brother.  I've a brother and sister that are interstate.  I have a mother here... But they all have their own lives.


I'm going to get a life.

And I even met someone....

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

Sweat and stuff...

I'm sitting here, rivulets of sweat running down a piece of my hair to drop on my collarbone.  Yep.  That will teach me.

It all started when I sacked the lawnmower guy...

He just wasn't doing it justice as far as I could see.  There were little tufts of lawn sticking up and grass everywhere!  And I mean everywhere!!!!  No blowing the grass away which meant that for a couple of days, it was all coming in the house. By God!

So I booted him.  Sacked him.  Retrenched him.

I bought a lawnmower and a whippersnipper that I couldn't even put together; I mean you need a degree in physics to be able to read the instructions, let alone follow them.  Call me stupid, but I figure if your spending a thousand dollars at Bunnings, you need it put together!

So I called on Dylan to come around (my youngest).  Fair deal I thought. I fed him and he put the lawnmower and whippersnipper together!  I made home made beef and red wine pies.

I used to be able to follow the directions.  This is just another thing that has changed.  No more putting stuff together.

Still, I'm a nicer person.  It used to be that people would gage my reaction to anything before they would speak...  I miss her.  But I like who I am now....

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Jobs... And things that go bump in the night...

Well today I applied for my first job.  I figured I may as well jump right in!  The only trouble was I used my current CV, which basically makes me sound like a God!

And that isn't me any more...  This issue with my brain means I can't think as before; can't think in many lines at once.  I'm basically a man; but hell, they get on all right!

I would have added that to a letter but there was no where to upload it...

I'm looking at it that God is watching out for me (finally).  It didn't let me upload a letter because I may have waffled on about brain damage and stuff!  Aside from that, I may be able to brazen my way through it and actually get it!  Now that would be funny and my life would be complete then..

I'd have everything.  A house.  A dog.  A job.

Monday, February 1, 2016

My God!!! I'm sweating!!!

Today I got up earlier and did the usual 'walk the dog'.  I suspect he got tired before me; I have tried to up my steps (stupid fit bit competition) to the point of going on my own sometimes, just to up my step count.

Sharpie got home from the walk and lay down on his bed, looking at me... Exhausted!

Until I went to go out then he was tail wagging.  
So we went for the second walk!
Then I went to the Supermarket; then Bunnings... Then dug up a heap of bushes and planted new ones.  Stone the crows! I'm buggered!

Jeez!  It's only quarter past two!!!