Coffee! Nectar of the Gods!

Well work may not want me for a while but it's giving me a chance to sun bake (with block out) and sample the coffee in Oakleigh. I haven't got long to do this; 27 days and I'm out of here!

Goodbye to the crap relationships! Goodbye to the coffee!  And hello to the push bike and dog!  I bought a bike on the weekend.  Dog is coming as soon as I get there.  And I can't wait.  I'll miss Oakleigh though... And their magnificent coffee!!

It's Beautiful...

I'm down the coast sitting in a small cafe. It's isolated, in that there isn't anything for miles around; yet it's full. I figure the coffee is good!

I can't help thinking that I've done the right thing in moving here.  Slower paced lifestyle.  

The only sad part of this move is that I ended it with Quigley.  I got tired of always coming last... On the bottom of the totem pole.  If you love someone, really love them; you want... No need to be with you.

He didn't.

Moving House !!!

Well you take a few months off, and look what happens.

I bought a house.

Its not a really fancy house, just a three bedroom on a block of land... but here the thing; it's in Geelong.

I'm going home.  Back where I belong you might say.  Where there are no trams; no millions of people.  No loneliness with everyone consumed with their own life.  

I've loved living in Melbourne, but that was the old me.  The me that could work all the time and when not at work, skylark with my friends.

The me that could think....  That didn't struggle to find the words.

I think I can be happy here!!!  With a bike; and a dog.  A garden....

I've bought the bike.  The garden is finished with the house and the dog will come!

Time to get with the program...

The time has come to get with the program.  I'm sick to death of staying home, the "brain damaged" girl and not living my life.  So what if I'm on my own!  Woo hoo!  Men are highly over rated anyhow.

My boss, who basically just said take 6 months leave; do something that you like, that you always wanted to do!  Your job will be here.

And so now my brain is in overdrive.

What did I always want to do..?

I wanted to travel, but I have to hang on the every cent I make for fear of ...  I don't know what, but it worries me!  I want a house; more than anything else at the moment!  I'm drawing up what it is going to look like.  Well drawing it up in some pre-school fashion lol.  Making notes in my phone such as "red splashback"; and a whole lot of meaningless stuff such as that.

Trouble is, I can't afford a house.  Well not yet.  And I don't want to buy one until I can move and live in it; revel in the fact that I've got a house.  Do the gardening...  walk the dog that I don't have at the moment!  I never really even wanted a dog!  They smell....  Or I thought they did.  Now I see that the dog and I will live a blissful life down the coast.  Walking the beach; riding to where ever we go!

And this is the thing that people don't see.  I'm different.  I can't even say mellow.  I'm changed; altered.  I haven't lost my temper since waking in the hospital and not knowing my name.  I'm not longer judgmental; about everything and everyone.  I don't see and feel jealous, or hate; instead I look and wonder about everybody.  People I wouldn't have given a shit about!  Fat, thin, ugly, beautiful people - all have something!

If I wasn't brain damaged, didn't have this inability to think straight, I think I would be very happy with the person I've become.